It feels terribly broken. Inside and outside. Whenever I do, Whatever I do, the pieces still tearing apart in my heart. First I lost my bestfriend ever. Then I lost the best girl I had in my life. Last, I lost the person which are my girlfriend and also my bestfriend. Is this a test from God? I don't know. I want to love someone again, but it's not easy, my heart were locked down. Lonely, is always walking inside of me, they are stays in my life. Maybe forever.